awkward conversations

so Im going to 2 shows this weekend, one opera with the lady and one musical with a friend. Im not sure what I'll were to the opera, but its a casual one were I could have on a nice pair of jeans and be ok. Well in some peoples mind, I still try to look extra nice for opera, hell its "high art" kinda like ballet, yes its super cheap opera but its still opera. I hope the lady wears a skirt, I haven't seen her in one in a while and it makes me so happy.

So I was working on stuff yesterday and my friend comes up to me and asks me if I am planning on wearing a dress, I look at her a little silly and reply "I only have one skirt in my closet and thats for when my family visits plus I get a little panicky after about 20 minutes in a skirt." I asked if there was a particular reason I needed to were a skirt (awkwardly running into her family or what ever the reason might be) We have known each other for over 2 years now, she has yet to see me, in that I can recall, any womens clothing and she has seen me dressed up plenty of times.

packing 2.0 and other various thoughts

A tiny side thought on the Friday post; when do you bring up packing? Is it one of those late night post sex talks or one or those early morning while I make breakfast? I doubt its one of those out at a restaurant dinner talks. I feel like its a personal step that has a direct affect (and effect for that matter) on the lady and our relationship. I know she wont go screaming for the hills but I worry about how she will react. Partially because of her previous relationships mostly with males and its just one of those things that runs through my head as affecting the out come of this conversation.

oh and - I was impressed by Rachel Maddow tonight on her own show. She is truly bright.

oh and - I got this link from a friend who is obsesses with brightly colored tennis shoes and was delighted to see Rachel Maddow wearing them, my favorite part article would be she looks like Ira Glass from This American Life (who is also on my list of truly bright people.)

oh and - a house fly just committed suicide by flying into my ceiling fan.

Packing

now how many posts can have one title and get 2 completely different posts?
packing of course.

Well I'm unpacking things right now, things that haven't been touched all summer, trying to figure out were all my kitchen stuff goes. I'll probably manage to loose all of my forks.

But also packing, Ive been wanting to start packing for dates with the lady. Honestly its more for my self (as it should be.) Every once and awhile I go through examining every little thing about my self and my gender expression. Generally I am happy with what I see, much happier than 4 years ago when i was midway through high school and wearing womens clothes to make my family happy. Me in an adorable chunky knit pink sweater with a curve hugging skirt and heals? its a frightening thought let me tell you. People often wonder were this masculine part came from, I don't know but it kicked in full gear in middle school. Back to packing, I have a packing/fucking cock the amazing silky who is also highly regarded by Sinclair author of the Sugarbutch Chronicles. I had not already owned my silky or Mr. Bendy as babeland calls it, when I found her blog her writings probably would have convinced me to run out and by one. Still I have not packed for more than a few hours by my self. I'm thinking the silky is too bulky for packing in a inconspicuous manner. Packing with something more like soft pack not noticeable to anyone by myself , a drifting hand, or the lady. The soft pack also gives me a chance to strap-on a larger cock because silky is not silicone and not very girthy.

Now pack to unpacking.