So, I’m not so good at this blogging thing. I think it has to do with the fact that I think of things I want to say all the time but rarely get around to sitting down in front of a computer to formulate these thoughts into something else, and if I do I generally feel guilty for not doing other things (like laundry or reading) or enjoying my free time with friends. So your getting a short rambeling and some fluff thrown in there too.

The thing that has been bouncing around in my head the most as of late is stature and how that plays into ID’ing as butch. I’m pretty tall and watching the different way people interact/treat me in comparison to a much physically smaller butch fascinates me. The amount of unearned respect that comes with being a larger size especially from men is exponentially higher. Something that was delt out to me by the genetics lottery allows the guys I work with to question less my ablitiy than someone who may have more skills but is smaller? What? Size has nothing to do with the way people should present themselves in the gender spectrum

Another thing about size is finding clothes, which is way easier said than done. Turns out I spend more time clothes shopping than the lady. Probably because I am kind of picky on my clothing cuts. But the best thing I have fallen in love with all winter is the half zip sweater

River Driver (Great Big Sea) and procrastinating

So I started a post on stature and how I carry my self and the whole thing that goes with that and then realized 3 things 1) it would take too long to get my thoughts out 2) I have presentation, 2 papers, a paper project and 3 exams by Friday 3) if I didn't stop looking at text books and highlighted pieces of paper my brain might explode wich brings you this, another one of those crazy tagging posts



I. Put your iTunes on shuffle.
II. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
III. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
IV. Tag 3 friends who might enjoy doing this.

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Hey Jude (Beatles)

2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Rhode Island is Famous For You (Erin McKeown)

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Act II: La Fleur Que Tu M'avais Jetee (Flower Song) (Opera Carmen)

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Fly Me to the Moon (Frank Sinatra)

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Moment Of Forgiveness (Indigo Girls)

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Confrontation (Les Mis)

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Cant Tell You Why (Eagles)

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Judgment Of The Moon And Stars (Ludwig's Tune) (Joni Mitchel)

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Thats the Way (Led Zepplen)

10. WHAT IS 2+2?
Out of Range (Ani DiFranco)

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Godspeed (Dixie Chicks)

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Fever (Peggy Lee)

16. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Everything Will Be Alright (Joshua Radin)

17. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
The State Of Massachusetts (Dropkick Murphys)

18. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Family (Dar Williams)

19. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
It Doesn't Matter Anymore (Buddy Holly)

20. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Something For Cat (Breakfast at Tiffany's soundtrack)

21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Daydream (Lovin Spoonful)

22. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
For Your Wallet (Old Growth)

23. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Paths That Cross (Patti Smith)

24. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Say Goodbye (Girlymen)

25. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Circle of Friends (Better that Ezra)

26. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Act 3 prelude: Devil and Kate (Dvorak)

27. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
River Driver (Great Big Sea)

Im tagging
1 - Holden of Packing Vocals
2 - Colleen of Fatgirl Femme
3 - and Greg of Green Eyed Girl

So its been awhile...

and apparently I can remember how to use this thing but that's ok, only 2 false posts that were empty. School kind of ate up all of my free time and took away most of my sleep time, but things have kind of calmed down for the moment.

Im not going to say too much about the election because I feel that most of us are in the same boat, bitter-sweet. Im happy to see Obama as president elect but disappointed in the fact that 3 states now have a ban on same-sex marriage.

I miss being able to dress up yes, I have posted on this before but I mean my day to day work clothes are work pants, a t-shirt and steel toes, a letherman, and a flashlight attached to my belt.

During this brief absence from posting it was my birthday, and sometimes I wonder why I get the things I do from my family (parents, my aunt, my 1 cousin and her family), girl pajama bottoms (now even my super girly best friend and my mother agree that men's pj bottoms are so much better, and they generally have pockets, which make them 100 times better for living in) and to go with those pants a package of mens white t-shirts in XL, now I am a womens XL but a mens M or L depending, and because of my tattoo that my family doesn't know about I just haven't worn a white t-shirt around them for a year. I also received a sparkly pink mermaid wind chime thing, its really beautiful. But sometimes I wonder how well does my family know me? and I know I dress more feminine around them, so I know that has something to do with it. Who knows, but my family does make me smile even when the tension does get a little high during the holidays, my mom breaks out her singing Elvis ornament and starts dancing around. Plus my daddy is amazing, he is one of my best friends and he still gets super excited over the idea that his only child, who is a girl can do it all, build things, weld things but also embroider and cook. And that is why for the past three years my dad has given me tools.

Ive been taged!

I was tagged twice! by Holden of Packing Vocals and Kyle of Butchtastic.

Wow its been a bit longer than I would hope between posts but midterms do that.


1. Link to your tagger and list these rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog - some random, some weird.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blog.
4. Let them know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

So the 7 random or weird facts are;

1) I always have gaffers tape with me, about 3 feet wrapped around a card in my wallet, my desk drawer, or my car. Its such handy stuff better than duct tape; I can tear it easily and no sticky gunk.

2) speaking of sticky gunk I can't stand my hands being sticky or things on my hands, I will be in the middle of a project and I just have to go wash my hands.

3) I always want to write in green ink, I also always write on grid paper

4) I dislike cats but I have learned to love the ladys cats, but I still want a puppy.”

5) I don't do spiders, the lady has to take care of them

6) One of my earliest memories is of getting bit by a spider, Ive also gotten 2 cortisone shots because of another bite. As I said, I don't do spiders.

7) I read technical manuals for fun, often times after I have used the product or on different kinds of motors they don't make anymore.

I think everyones blog that I read has been tagged so I might do a different tagging post later this week if I get a chance.

awkward conversations

so Im going to 2 shows this weekend, one opera with the lady and one musical with a friend. Im not sure what I'll were to the opera, but its a casual one were I could have on a nice pair of jeans and be ok. Well in some peoples mind, I still try to look extra nice for opera, hell its "high art" kinda like ballet, yes its super cheap opera but its still opera. I hope the lady wears a skirt, I haven't seen her in one in a while and it makes me so happy.

So I was working on stuff yesterday and my friend comes up to me and asks me if I am planning on wearing a dress, I look at her a little silly and reply "I only have one skirt in my closet and thats for when my family visits plus I get a little panicky after about 20 minutes in a skirt." I asked if there was a particular reason I needed to were a skirt (awkwardly running into her family or what ever the reason might be) We have known each other for over 2 years now, she has yet to see me, in that I can recall, any womens clothing and she has seen me dressed up plenty of times.

Dork...

I feel like such a dork because people are reading and commenting on my writing. Ive never been confident in my writing, and the fact that people are reading my thoughts that were thrown into a keyboard and enjoy it might make me giggle a little.

Also I feel like there is something wrong with the fact I am in class earlier every day than I was at work this summer, and I started at 8:30 this summer.

oops!

so in my night stand table there are several different sex toys and cocks. I the lady and I have a few things that are used the most and the others are mostly mine, things that don't really do it for her or there really awkward to use with someone else. So it dawned on me that I haven't seen some toys and cocks for a while now...like since I moved in. I]m starting to worry about where they are. I have spent the past few hours looking for them. If I left them at home I might as well go and buy replacements because I know they will probably be found and thrown out. well crap.